I was dissociated her whole funeral bc I did not wanna cry anymore I cried everyday up until her funeral, every morning I wake up til every night I close my eyes I think of my cousin a day never goes by without me thinking of her ,funny how our song we always you to listen to in the car was hrs and hrs by muni long or Time Machine and that’s all I wish I had , hrs and hrs with my cousin, and I really really really wish I had a Time Machine , so sad you missed Christmas but I didn’t get you anyth